Friday, February 29, 2008
One of the best things about massages is that even though you go in hoping to get one area addressed, I am always surprised by the other areas that get worked out too. Tonight, I was looking forward to the areas I mentioned above but when she got to my arms...WOW! I didn't even know I needed that worked on too!
Isn't that the way it is with God? We go to Him for a specific hurt or concern and He surprises us with so many other areas He can address. Funny thing is, most of the time we didn't even know we were hurting there. All we had to do was put ourselves in His hand, be still and quiet before Him, and let Him do His work. He is there to help us in so many ways we weren't even anticipating.
What wonderful hands they are!
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Starting about two years ago, I met and started falling in love with Alissa's daughter Abby. She LOVES to sing, has a contagious smile, makes the funniest comments, and is cute as a button. I have two Abby originals hanging on my refrigerator. They are signed and everything!
Then, I have had the chance to meet a wonderfully Godly woman at church who has two beautiful children. Her daughter is seven and is smart as a whip! She is fun to talk to and is so outgoing! Absolutely precious! Her son is four and he melts my heart every time I see him. He has a huge smile and is the most cuddly hugger. Between the two of them, I am sunk!
There is a couple at church that Erin and Gregg are very good friends with. They have a daughter that is a few months over a year old. I can't sit behind her because I can't take my eyes off of her. Big blue eyes, red ringlets, and a smile that goes from ear to ear. I got to hold her once and I've wanted to do it again ever since.
As if that isn't enough, one of my co-workers had her 13 month old daughter at work yesterday. She was the most beautiful chunk of a baby I have seen in a while. She was smiling and flirting with everyone. My arms ached to hold her.
As I walked away from my friend and her baby, something that I once heard ran through my head. A friend told me that women start feeling that longing for children around 28 if you haven't had them already. I never put the two together but here I am, 28, looking at babies and little ones with more longing than I have in the past. I'm not ready to be a mom yet (thankfully) but I'm wondering if this is the start of that ticking biological clock. I still have plenty of time so I'm not worried. They are just all so cute and so loving!
Good think I have the best birth control ever - teaching!
Monday, February 25, 2008
I met Alissa when we both started attending Southern Hills church of Christ about the same time. While I remember the first night we had dinner together, I don't remember exactly when we became friends. Thankfully, somewhere along the way, God blessed me with the gift of her. For that alone, I will forever be grateful! In the short time we lived so closely, she held my hand through my darkness, persistently kept me at church, and helped me get refocused in my life. She never doubted me when that was all I felt in myself. She has made me feel like a part of her family. She can make me laugh like few others can. She tolerates me from my cheesiest to my most serious. I absolutely love every moment that I can spend with her. From serious to silly, she is there. She is a true friend in every sense of the word.
What I love most about Alissa is her heart to know God in a deeply personal way - to experience him and seek his truth. She shines in love for her precious family. Unfortunately, I don't call like I should but I hold Alissa up as one of the dearest friends of my life.
Alissa, tonight my prayer of thanksgiving is for you!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
No rocks cried out this morning!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
There is a lady at church that I am growing to really admire and love. At life group, she announced that she likes to ask people what God is doing in their lives. She said she does this because she has noticed in herself that her head knowledge of God's presence in her life often go unrecognized if she does not actively looked for Him. As the asker of questions, I know that you cannot ask a question you are not prepared to answer yourself. So here is what God is doing in my life:
- revealing the lies that Satan attacks me with so he can shower me with His truths
- showing me where my God-shaped holes are so that only He can abundently fill them
- speaking a word when I need it most
- creating a desire for a specific ministry
- opening my eyes to the use of my time and what that means
- making known to me what He has in store
- healing wounds I did not know were still there
- taking my breath away with the little ways He shows love on a daily basis
Our God is good and actively pursuing us daily. What about you? What is God doing in your life?
Monday, February 11, 2008
Lucky for him, there are only five in our class!
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Friday, February 08, 2008
The first is the river that flowed outside the cabin we stayed in on our last family vacation. We walked down to it and waded in a couple of times. Erin and I talked down there for a while one afternoon. I don't remember what we talked about but I do remember it being one of the more relaxing and enjoyable parts of our vacation. I also remember falling asleep to the sound of it flowing just a few yards away from my door. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and listening to it wash away every care or concern, carrying my back to sleep.
On the same vacation, Dad and us kids hit the rapids (I'm the yellow helmet on the left). So much fun! The river wasn't the highest rated rapids but we enjoyed it. The power of the river bounced us around and kept us on our toes. We never knew exactly what to expect but at the same time, we looked forward to any turn or jolt along the way. We had a great guide and we knew we were in good hands.
Right now, I long for both. I miss them both. For the first time in a long time I am not planning a trip for the summer. That isn't a bad thing but tonight, I miss my rivers.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Part of my problem is that I have bitten off a little more than I can chew with tutoring groups. However, that is not my biggest stress factor. It comes in the form of the LARGE amounts of time that we are losing from out instructional block. Each week, I lose an hour and a half to a district mandated computer program, half an hour to counselor lesson (literally an Arthur video EVERY week), and half an hour to library. Grand total of three and a half hours. Doesn't sound like a lot but it is! On top of that are the ENDLESS modifications in my class and the "oh! and one more things...." that land in my inbox each day. I just step back and wonder if this is the life that I truly want for myself - and eventually for my future family. Every year I get over it but what does it mean that it happens every year?
OK....I'm finished venting! Off to work!